Wednesday, August 31, 2005
regeneration
i'm soooo glad geog test's finally over! i'm not sure if i did well or not but i have confidence in myself (yeah, i always do, but eventually end up screwing it).. during the whole of teacher's day celebrations, i was revising and re-revising. well, i shouldn't be doing that if i was really prepared. but truth is, i wasn't. i was wallowing in depression the whole of yesterday, shunning my books and everything else, seeking solace in dark metal music. yadayada.
and why am i depressed? cos i flunked my math test, cos my sister was being her usual selfish self, cos my best friend seems to be irritated with me, cos everyone's spreading stupid rumours about me, cos i disappoint myself in everything i do, cos everyone seems to misunderstand me, cos i think i'm the victim all the time, cos i'm developing a very bad temper .... and the list goes on. and mainly cos, i care about all of this. and the worst part is, i don't have anyone to confide in. i can't even talk to my best friends. why? don't ask. but, i've learnt a lesson from this. SMILE ALWAYS, no matter how much you suck, no matter how depressed you are, no matter how negative you feel, cos then EVERYONE WILL LOVE YOU. it's a proven hypothesis. at least, from my experience. and somehow, the only people who brighten up my day are people like chelsia (:, wei ting, rachel small, nelicia, pei qi, tammy & yen lin.. etc.. people i HARDLY talk to! ironic, ain't it? and to all those people out there spreading stupid rumours about me saying i've had several boyfriends and SHIT like that, shut up ok. really. i mean, even ppl from my pri skl know about em! i don't know how the hell the crap got that far. and it's PURE RUBBISH. i CONFESS, i'm not that innocent and all. but i'm nowhere near to the other extreme as well. so just stop making my life miserable.
well heck that. the psl are supposed to be out today. but they didn't put it up yet. miss low gave a few of us a short lecture on how we should behave if we became psls. and maria's a PREFECT! WOOTS! (: glad for her.. but well.. somehow she didn't seem too excited about it though she really wanted to be one all the while.. that's why she even signed up.. and somehow, i have the feeling i should have tried too. what did i have to lose? too late i guess.. and i'm still contemplating on what position to take up in the hadley house comm! i don't know if i should stick to games captain.. hmm.. the worst part is, i'm supposed to be a treasurer for netball next year. TREASURER, of all things. GARH. i don't even mind quarter mistress! but treasurer?! money and i DONT go together AT ALL. well at least, i can't handle large amounts. sigh. maria and i have been thinking of trying out for part-time jobs at fast food restaurants. that'll be like SO cool! i can't wait man.. we're kinda serious about it. if it works out, we'd be earning money from our own hard work! i can't wait.
teacher's day concert was very boring, i must say. in the first place, i couldn't enjoy it because of the geog test which was scheduled to take place right after the celebrations. and the items were so crap! the performance by the SLs was pathetic. really. but the songs were good. even the teacher's band did far too many songs. their music rocked, but next time, they should get people like joseph toh to sing. or rather, people who can actually sing and have a loud enough voice. i couldn't even hear mrs anis and miss woo/wu. yeah i agree mrs anis does have guts to go up on stage and stuff, but please.. the music's so damn good.. there HAS to be a good singer to match it!
anw, after the celebrations and the geog test, i went back to pri skl today. actually, i wasn't planning to initially. but grace called up, and mrs tan asked us to come too. of course i couldn't refuse. so rachel ong/small and i decided to take a cab there. but in total, we only had 6.95 bucks on us. so we asked the driver if it would cost less than that before we got in. but when we reached near our school, the fare exceeded the sum we had cos of the ERP crap. it was damn comical. we were like panicking, wondering what we were gna do. but the driver was nice. he dropped us a little nearer to our school but accepted the amount we had. (: so that was that. and then we met all the teachers and stuff.. it was great to see some of them again. though many changed tremendously (to the good and the bad), it was still refreshing to see them all again. ok, maybe not all. some changed FAR too much. they were so damn oblivious and ignorant! well that was only SOME of them. most of them were great. no matter how much i used to detest some of the teachers, it was still heart-warming to see them again. and after gg arnd talking to teachers and old buds, grace chan and i had a nice long chat at the netball courts. since we were waiting for our sisters and had nothing better to do. i never knew grace was so engaging. :p lol. ah well.
and news of the week: MY SISTER GOT IN TO RGS THROUGH ENGLISH DSA. ((: i'm freaking happy for her cos she badly wanted to get in. actually, she hasn't even had her PSLE yet. but yeah.. she's confirmed in now.. and it'd be great if she did well for PSLE as well. yay!
i guess that's about it.
man, it feels great to blog.
that's a reminder to all those who have neglected their poor blogs.
UPDATE!
it's not that hard.
cya.
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